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literary production
romantic conscience
human side brings the option
believe
believe
yep _ _ believe
but there is the machine side
a reiterated process
what are we doing
why we insist
where is our goal
who are we
when we decide
erased
close your eyes
close your ears
close your mouth
you say: shut up
i can't
my silence is louder than my words
noone hears
neither the words, neither the silence
you say: do you
i don't know. do i?

222

222
no
today i am going to keep with my project
and i am going to resist to _ _ _ _
2222 _
and _ to be
or not _
otherwise _
hard _ maybe _
heavy _ maybe _
what's the difference _
what makes me sad _
where is the option _
hard and heavy _
i must _
i must _ return _ to portugal _
someday
but _ in between _
it's not _ _ hard _
it's not _ _ heavy _
pleasure _
even _ without _ words _
the few available _ they are enough _
to say _
what i need _
why doesn't the world speak one only language?
_ _ _ _
ah! _ _ _ _
i know the answer _
the answer was where now is
i know the answer _
and so many words suppressed _
or not _
or otherwise _
222
you know i can't escape
of mixing everything
and now i don't know what is 222
and the first arrangement
and the second one
and so _
or not _
or otherwise
who cares?
222 it is

221

learning
here
where i am
seated
on a place
from where i can _ see
everywhere
from the left
i see on the left
people talking
on the right
the board
where all rules come from
made from the people on the left
people _ talking
talking
everything's decided on _ talks
and i'm still here
learning _ _ _
_ _ _ _
but _ i see now _
you are faced to me on my left
you're on your right either

220

18
120
18
another sequence
abstract numbers
now unbalanced
has i write
increasing
the first number
right now
still 18
how much does it take to find a next one?
done
another sequence
was enough
and now i look back and think
i wrote to my own pleasure
and to you?
what am i doing to you?
numbers
and numbers
thoughts
and thoughts
what else can i do?
ask for a word
send you a word
think on a word
make prisoners with words
hey! how'bout that? _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
no jails, just words
peaceful handcuffwords _ _
ah! going back
20 it is

219

time
flying hours
discrete time
never words can
be words
no original words
no words
silent words
alive times
silence
full of substance
on the proper emotion of lines
written
at the taste of the wind
between
soft pauses
of who doesn't know
another tomorrow
at the taste of the wind
there's only one
leaf

218

going
by
forgotten roads
of past days
lost
lost on the rain
lost in the water
eating moments
after devoured books
the same stories
the same corners
the same forbidden places
i learned to dream
between games
and lessons
and silent notes
my favourite silent notes
made by someone
with or without
staccato or legato
described
on a tree
on the tiniest leaf on the tree
of your private garden

217

again
instead of subtracting
again
i am adding
instead of cleaning my disk
here i am
writing again
with no spaces
no empty time
no staccato
no addldfjfkg
again
instead of subtracting
again
i am adding
another day
another k
tomorrow
the text of today
becomes alive

216

friday night
fever
hot blood
music on
in the air
and the phone rings
clearly a call
music coming in through the lines
friday night
fever
hot blood
melting
standing with a drink
why
what am i doing with a song in my hand
with a drink mixed with the blood
with another song on the phone
just because it's friday
friday
fever
hot blood
and i can't stop
and i can't stop drinking the music
a book
an old beautiful written book
is waiting for me somewhere

215

it's earth day
what are we doing about it
THEN ???

214

another colour
on the wall
i see _ another colour
i can see
another colour
what can i do if you tell me there are 2?
i don't see one
i can _ only see _ one
you see two
i see one
you see two
i see one
two colours
which is the one you see that i can't?

213

turning
returning
to the starting point
to the point where
everything starts
the starting point
returning
to you
to the point where
everything starts
always returning
always
always returning
just to say
goodbye
always saying goodbye
just to say
i'm here

212

again _ _
a number
i can't _ _ _ _ _ _ _
stop _
thinking _ _
why do these numbers always come to mind? _
the beauty of numbers _
like love _
what's love _
there's nothing beauty on numbers _
they just come to my pseudomind _
like a robot designed to think _
and everyone knows there's no intelligence _
no more than we have _
aqain _ _
a number
i can't _
stop _
thinking _ _
a number made for today _
a simple day _
full of experiences _
like all days can be made of another adventure _
if we open our heart
212
that

211

you say _ _ _ _
maybe not what you think _
but ___ it's a fact _
you say _ _ _ _ _
i always have something to say _
sometimes i struggle for a word _
not all _
just one _
sometimes i go after a sound _
and i find myself lost in a music _
sometimes i go after a letter _
and i find myself lost in a story _
sometimes i just let go _
and then _ _
and then _
i'm just lost
in chaos
where i always find my self _
and after thinking _ of chaos _ _
and thinking again _
what is chaos _
if _
not _
nature math

210

today _ _
i'm rewriting _ _
what i wrote someday _
new spaces _ new words _
everything is new
around the memory
of your birthday _
you have nine _
born at the first hour _
you dream _
i dream _
you dream _
i dream _
you dream _
i dream _
you dream with gifts _
and of being _ _
you are one of my most beautiful dreams _
you laugh
as life _ _ can't be better _
even when you scream _
when you scream _
when you cry _ with _ small _ things _
and i wait _ for _the never come bigger _
you don't deserve _
no one deserves _
where can we complain about life _
it's inside _
directly _
to the heart _ _
right now i'm thanking for _ _
there were different times _ _
and others are coming _
far away _ i hope

209

naked _
your skin
touching my hand _
moving against me _
naked _
completely
naked _
so simple _
and yet _ complex _
naked _
completely
naked _
your hand on my skin
skinonhand
skiingonhand _
handskiingonskin

208

today _
i see _ words _ _ _
so many
everywhere _ _
and _ i'm going after them _
like a bird _ _ _
chasing a worm _
today _
i see _ words _
so many _ everywhere _
and i'm going after them _ _ _ _ _ _ _
but they all run faster than i can fly _ _ _ _ _ _ _
they all have _ _ _ great _ engines _
and _ i _ am _ just a worm _ _ _
thinking _
i am a bird _
looking _ for a little worm _ _ _ _ _ _ _
and now _ _ _ i'm rephrasing _ _ _
i don't like this conjunction _ _ _ _ _
so i keep rephrasing _ _
rephrasing _ _ _ _ _ _ _
and i decide _ _ to put _ _ exactly _
how it comes _ _
after being rephrased _ _ _ _ _
and _ _ to simplify the thinking _ _ _
now is the moment _
to go back _
and silence the lines

207

and another day comes
to use _ by the first time _
and it's probably not a good idea
_ _ _ _ _
a space in time _
a substitute to the .
_ _
because it's not
_ _ _ _
it's just my silent note
you don't have to follow
_ _ _ _
but you should _
if
you want to follow the silent notes
_
and i am confused
_ _ _ _
because now i have to think what i am thinking
and what i am not
now i must think about the emptiness
_ _ _ _
have you seen it?
exactly _
where it was?

206

going back
2
spontaneous mode
2
the good things in life
i can't describe
i just let my fingers
run through the keyboard
thinking
or not
staying out of trouble
or not
going back
2
dreams
and now i think
why not
i should use something you can understand
like in the music
but then there was no spontaneous reading
if i give the timing
there is no timing i can provide
i only have mine
your timing is yours
and i can change your timing with the timing i consider perfect
i only have the timing i use
what's time(ing)?
_ <<< from now on

205

a word a day
depressive thoughts
sometimes
euphoric
sometimes
like rain
in a forest
always wet
a word a day
random ideas
sometimes
black and white
sometimes
like rain
in a desert
always sandbow
wires make dreams
dreams make days

204

.....
.....
.....i can
......................... only
.....be
............................ another
.....if i am
............................... who
.....i am
.................................. not
.....
.....
.....

203

.
.
. i can
. only
. be
. another
. if i am
. who
. i am
. not
.
.
.

202

i can
only
be
another
if i am
who
i am
not

201

yesterday
my effort was
to your words
the best chosen words
on the minutes you had
and spontaneously you offered
and they were good
great
beautiful
the best words i could get
and i tried to go after them
today
i thank you
for the words
for your kindness
for your friendship
tomorrow
i am going again to my own words
the ones not mine
the ones not yours
an universe of singular words
of the world
an human offer to human life
think of humanity and environment now (tomorrow :-)

200

hands
serenade
memory
hands
serenade
memory
hands
serenade
memory
and it is
200
so much of nothing
so much of me
so many hands
serenades
memories
and the me is you
or are you me
so many hands
on hands
so many moments
and thoughts
of you
and me
so many souls
together
and it is
200
hands
serenade
memory
hands
serenade
memory
hands
serenade
memory
who remembers 99?
hands on hands
serenade
and it would be completed here
nothing said
as always
but nothing never ends
except these lines
the human part of who can't write an irrational word
the infinite word
i never find
and i always search
hands on hands
serenade
memory of times
looking for answers
noone has
on the clocks
on the oldest places
on the trees
on the trees
on the trees
on the imperfect definition of a number
mathematically perfected
and you should stop me
not you
YOU
you
NOT YOU
hands on hands
serenade
memory of times
the times i keep looking at
and now i'm going
to a place
where the moon shines
always the moon
always
the moon
and the scream
are you screaming to the moon?
don't
tomorrow
or some other day
you are going to tell me
the moon is screaming back
crying
for so many screams
hold
the moon is always an escape
how many lifes were saved by the moon?
hands
serenade
memory
confusing?
what's not?

199

a day has passed
a beautiful warm day
with the not so far sea
around
but
what am i telling?
if i saw the sea all over me
dolphins playing near
and the boat
floating
from coast to coast
with you and me
and some more
and cars
and everything
with the sun
setting
where is everybody going?
where
is
everybody
g o i n g ?

198

bricks
and water
bricks
and water
connected
bricks
and water
would you go with me
around the world
throwing bricks to the water
building bricks
with water
transparent bricks
do i want that?

197

translating
letters
letters turn letters
words turn words
translating
nothing turns nothing
or not
love is always love
love is always nothing
as with nothing you live
and with nothing you die
always loving always being loved

196

going fast today
like every day
somewhat faster today
with so many calls saying
enough
it's never enough
always another minute
just one more
another
not enough
why everything's so fast
if the world doesn't move
have you seen it move once?
or is just that story someone told you once?